shattered_pieces
- shattered_pieces
- Female, 16
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- Comments So Far
- 478
- Last Updated
- 06/17/08
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winter fears
December 23, 2007 3 Commentshere comes December..bringing along the gorgeous rain, and cloudy mornings of tender breeze. But also..bringing back my insecurity, my depression.
With every drop of rain on my window.. a shiver goes through my body, a cold thought runs through my head, why am I so sad?
I mean .. two years back it was understandable.. I had family fights, I felt so completely alone, I was just becoming a teen, it was UNDERSTANDABLE. But why now? Sure I feel alone, I don't have close friends, but so what? A lot of people don't, and things in my life got better, it's way worse for other people, so why do I still wanna fade away?
When I'm home alone, I don't feel ugly. I don't feel inferior to everyone else. But when I go out of the house, I just HAVE to compare myself to every frickin girl I see. I feel so insecure and thoughts overwhelm me so I just don't wanna live anymore.
It's stupid, really.. but it's kinda bad that now that mom went away for this month to be with dad, we're gonna have to spend Eid, Christmas and new year's alone. If I had friends I would go out with them but..oh whatever. My sisters are fine anyway..we'll be fine..i think.
This is just a random entry coz it's 8 a.m. (Friday morning, no skool).. and I can't go back to sleep. Shit.
It's raining now..it's so beautiful.. but scary too.
Well I guess depression's still on for now..
So..
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Invisible [poem]
November 22, 2007 7 CommentsDrowning in the silence
Of my clouded skies
Walking alone
Invisible to you
Why can't you see me?
Why don't you care?
Do you even know I'm there?
Sometimes I wonder
If you can feel my heart
Breaking on the floor
I wonder
Why would you wanna hurt me more
Than you already did
Now that I'm alone
I feel your voice
Drowning in my thoughts
Pool of emptiness
& dreams that'll never come true
Leave me in the dark
With my obsessions, always so far
Taken over my heart
Forever
& if I fade away tomorrow
Will you notice that I'm gone?
Will you read my poems and see
The shattered heart I used to be?
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Give Me Your Hand [poem]
October 16, 2007 3 CommentsGive me your hand
Let me take you to my world
To my confused sky and shaking ground
This is my morning
Grey clouds n a hard sound
Of the emptiness that I found
Come with me
See my lonely dreams
Crushed by reality
Hear my never ending lullaby
Sing me to sleep n ease my mind
I close my eyes to escape
This rusted world of lies
N open them again to find
Everything I left behind
Still is the same
Give me your hand n walk with me
Out of this world of frights
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Fairy Rain [poem]
October 16, 2007 1 CommentWalking alone
In the wind
Angels singing in her mind
Hiding all the pain inside
Watching the rain fall from the grey sky
That she calls home
Walking alone
She’s walking alone again...
She wants to go home
But she lost the way
She screams for help
But all in vain
The sun goes down
As her eyes close up
Her tears fall down
& her soul falls up
A smile is drawn on her fading face
By the dawn she’s gone, leaving no trace…
Now when the rain falls glittering
From the darkened skies
A fairy whispers
To the world of lies
Her voice is distant
Like the clouds above
She lights the road
For the runaway love…
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dedicated to LP fans
August 21, 2007 4 CommentsThis is just a random blog dedicated to LP fans who passed away.. I just wanna say that they were my brothers and sisters like all LP fans..& I think of them everyday n I feel so sad I couldn’t do anything to help them.. whether they died in an accident or intentionally .. I’ll always keep them in my thoughts..hope you will too.. Thx 4 listening..
Older Posts
- August 6, 2007 / a poem 5 Comments